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God ok for the past few weeks all I can think about is losing weight. It seems to me that everyone thinks I look fine, better even but I've gained weight well I've been thinking about going aneroxic but I'm not sure I've cut calories and started to work out at the SRC at UNA but not seeing any results ye. I'll let you know on Monday how its going bc I'm starting tommorrow.

Today I paid for my books for the semester $295 what the #%&$ anyways its been pretty nice life lately. I talked to Nathan and he is doing good. Chris and I have hung out two times in the past week and I really don't know how he feels about me. I can't wait to start school. Well G2G LOVE always jami

uggh this week or so has been hell I had to stay at granny pat's all weekend almost bc mom and dad wanted alone time anyways I'm babysitting now and dont have much time to type.Tommorrow I'm going to Beth's house to celebrate her birthday yippee HAPPY BDAY BETH!!

ok not much time me and bobby broke up and i was in tn last week.

Oh my god the past 30 hours have been bliss. I met a guy online and it is rather scary. Not in a bad way but a really really good way we have so much in common and his name is bobby. I love him so much. He is a ral sweetheart toward me. **smiles**. Also Mr. Sizemore got fired YIPPEE. I also sold $90 worth of jewelry wow never knew I could do that. Well not much more to say. I'm doing better with the whole SI thing.

Pictures

Okay I finally figured how to do the picture on here. Here are some pictures of me.

Ok not much new just tired from yesterday and today yesterday i did SOAR at UNA and got my Mane card. Yippee I also took pics of Una and Leo drinking out of a spray bottle. Hmm they are not spoiled hmmmm yeah.

Ok not much really going on I guess you could say I am getting better but I am not. Hmm I really almost commited suicide this past weekend because mom wont get off my back uggh hope this isnt how my summer is going to be any ways I went to church this past Wednesday and Mr. and Mrs. Hines are leaving ;( anyways I told a few people and they took it ok I guess Kenny was really supportive of me it was really sweet. Brooke kinda took it funny. Well its better they know now so I don't have to hide. Well g2g

Okay I haven't had any me time in a while but I have a little bit right now so I'm dropping a few lines. Uggh graduation practice was a pain in the ass!! We practiced for like 4 hours!! I got a sun burn bad!! Then the graduation ceramony only lasted 1 1/2 hours. Whatever It's gonna be hard without some of my friends next year it was kinda weird I didn't cry untill I saw Corinne after graduation. I'm really gonna miss her bunches. Not that I'm not gonna miss my other friends but without her and Norman I think I may have commited suicide this year. (Kinda scary huh). I got my digital camera and still looking for a tattoo. Well nothing much to say.

Wow alot has happened in a week!!! My mom found out about me cutting and she freaked!!! I got a 74 on my economics final but I'm not too sure bout my math exam! Im only gonna be posting every week now. So dont worry.

okay I had a blast yesterday. We went on our senior trip to Doublehead Resort. I'm hurting now. Wow yeah I did a lot. Sorry I haven't been typing recently just not enough time in a day to do it all in.

ok just another day. I talked to Mr. Hanna yesterday and he sounded like he was doing really good he even offered me to do my student teaching with him 8-) God I miss everyone so much still. Some times I wonder what people are doing or thinking during the day. Hmmm I told Chris last night that I cut myself I don't know what he feels bc I did it through text messaging stupid way I know. well g2g

okay it was a looooooooooonnnnng weekend !!! I babysat shelby and got on line I talked to my ex Justin and he denined we ever were together. His new gf is really sweet but she is 4 years younger than him eww. I talked to Chris and I think we might get together :) lol Well not much else to say but later days

Okay I'm back. Didn't have much time yesterday because I was in a chat room most of the day and I can only go on this website in coach Radtke's class bc the school blocks this site. Hmm whatever. I got my dress and shoes for graduation. Yippee well G2G
Love always
Jami

okay I haven't posted in a while because I've been sick. It is beautiful outside just like the nice Arizona weather. Hmm I wonder about the people around me sometimes. I think to myself why do people act the way they do but I guess it is just something to wonder. Today we got a new pope he is from Germany I think that is a sign of some sort being today is Hitler's Birthday. HMMM. Well now only like 23 days left til graduation!!! Yippee can hardly wait and soon I will be in college. Well G2g
Love Always Jami

Okay just sitting here listening to music from when I was happy (Blink 182). It's been a long time since I've truely been happy. That's kinda pathetic but true. Hmm what ever I know that I am merely exsisting just so I can "enjoy" all the good things in life hmm. I'm just thinking how long has it really been that I wanted to wake up in the morning and face the day and the people in my life. Well enough mindless garbage .
Love always
Jami

Okay I had a wonderful weekend . I didn't go to prom but Martha and I went to the mall and got these cute little friendship necklaces for us and Na'Koal and I got three new charms for my charm bracelet one is a christian fish then a cross then one that says I heart Jesus. I luv em. Martha and I also got shirts Martha's says "Hi, My Name is Naughty" and it has a dog on it. Mine has "Hi My Name Is Trouble" then it has a racoon on it. I went back Saturday and got a pink shirt (I KNOW GASP) lol and three shirts and a pair of filp flops for Sunday. On Sunday I got my pictures taken and think they're really nice looking the ones I saw anyways. I can hardly wait for next class to start because Ms. Ricketts is here and I don't think anyone else in the class knows but I. Well not much to write
lOVE aLWAYS
jAMI

Wow it is really bad outside we are getting storm and I think we will get out of school because it is getting pretty bad. I'm really mad too because I wana go to prom now and can't. Uggh why am I so stupid oh well. Not much to say just wanna die. I know I am pretty dead inside already.
Love Always
Jami

okay just another day I made a 90% on my term paper nd we are allowed to make corrections and turn it in again yippee!! Anyways I cant wait for graduation!! I'm still a little sad because of Meghan not coming but thats okay! I can't wait for this weekend because Brad is going to be taking my pictures !! I might get a few cds this weekend but I dunno. I hate this week because I'm not going to prom and everyone is talking about prom this and prom that ughh.
Love Always
Jami

Okay I got my term paper done yesterday yippee. I also talked to Justin for a few minutes. He seemed a little mad at me bc I broke my promise to him that I'd stop. I feel bad bc he seemed really worried. Oh well I seem to disappoint a lot of people in my life. Its been 2 weeks !!! Yippee!! I hope I can make it though spring break. Spring break is going to suck because I won't be able to go anywhere. Gonna have to clean with mommy dearest..uggh. I also am mad at myself bc at first I didn't want to go to prom but now I can't bc I don't got time to get everything together.Oh well messed my life a little bit more like always.Well G2G its almost time to leave.
Love Always
Jami

uggh okay I didn't want to put this with my pervious post. I couldn't get a hold of Justin last night . I got a hold of him one time and when I did his dad needed to use the phone so I'm guessing he lives at home now which is cool I hope we get back together. I really missed him when he lost touch. 8-( but he's back in touch 8-)). Well whatever. I won't be posting for a week bc we're out of school and I'm grounded so .
Love Always,
Jami-Lyn

Terri Schiavo

A federal appeals court refused early Wednesday to order the reinsertion of Terri Schiavo's feeding tube, denying the latest emergency request by the severely brain-damaged woman's parents to keep her alive. In my some of my classes we have been talking about this woman. The Schindlers said Tuesday that their daughter was fading quickly and might die at any moment. Her feeding tube was disconnected on Friday, and doctors have said that Schiavo, 41, could survive one to two weeks without water and nutrients.The Schindlers have been locked for years in a battle with Schiavo's husband over whether her feeding tube should be disconnected. State courts have sided with Michael Schiavo, who insists his wife told him she would never want to be kept alive artificially.In court documents, the Schindlers said their daughter began "a significant decline late Monday. Her eyes were sunken and dark, and her lips and face were dry.I "While she still made eye contact with me when I spoke to her, she was becoming increasingly lethargic,"Bob Schindler said in the papers. Terri no longer attempted to verbalize back to me when I spoke to her." It amazed me that some of my fellow classmates did not know of this person until a day or so ago. I feel appalled that this case has gone so far in such a short amount of time. This happens almost everyday. I know that as soon as possible I'm gonna get a living will. I know that if this happened to me I would not want to stay in a vegetated state, unless there was a chance of recovery. Being born with only a ten percent chance to live I trust my doctors 100% with my life. What do you think ? Please comment !!!!

Okay I'm really happy because mom said Justin called last night. He left a message saying he'd been in the hospital and thought I'd move on. I haven't listened to the message but I'm very happy!! I got to see the lady from Riverbend next period uggh.... Anyways I GOTTA GO AND WORK ON MY TERM PAPER!! AH
love always Jami-Lyn

I had an okay weekend. I'm at 10 days now and I'm very proud. Norman and Corrine are happy to I now see even though my mom don't care about me my friends do!! It is going to be a little harder next week with being out on Spring Break. Ugh. Anyways I went to a leadership forum on Saturday and it was pretty cool. Na'koal and Martha were there and so were a few others from school. Any ways not much time to write so I better go
Love Always,
Jami

Okay so today I have to talk to this lady from Riverbend. I don't know when they are going to call me to talk but I'm not gonna say anything because it is none of their business what I do. Whatever. OMG I almost died yesterday in drivers ed when Michael was driving. I'm getting better at driving ! YIPPEE! Lilly is the only one I think Coach might fail because she keeps driving off the road oh well. I can't wait for graduation I've lost count of days. I can't wait for Meghan to come here I miss her so much . :( I miss my meghan!!!! Lol anyways I'm kinda happy because Anber isn't riding the bus anymore yipppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! Well anyways G2G
love always
Jami

Okay so far so good I haven't got called out of class yet. I have a feeling I might get called out of 7th period because it is ecology I dunno. I'm tired of having nasty ass food at school. Lemon pepper chicken (which is ok ) or potato bar (yuck).G2G
love ALWAYS
Jami

okay maybe my day can get worst during art I got called to guidance and Ms. Riser told me the usual stuff. Then she asked me to see someone from Riverbend the Phy. Hospital here but I told her I'd go but I dunno. Whatever I really don't care I just wana be left alone from adults. Uggh I'm really glad I have friends here that I know somewhat understand what I'm going through. Ughh what ever g2g and work on my term paper. It's been 3 days of SI free!

Okay I don't think I could have more of a crappy weekend. Okay first on Friday I came home and cleaned. Then on Saturday I worked on drawing my stupid painting for art. Then on Sunday had to babysit Shelby and she is cutting teeth so she crys alot and she is turning into a spoiled brat. Then on Monday No school whoppie! NOT I still had to babysit Shelby and didn't have time to eat lunch so I felt sick the rest of the day then went home to mom screaming that she had a mid-term and she needed help writing her note cards (BOO FUCKING HOO) Whatever then this moring I had to walk the dog and I came inside to mom bitching it was to cold and wet for the dog so I sai, "well why don't you walk the dog" and she said "Well why don't you die". She is just trying to destroy what is left of me. I'm so depressed and I only have two reasons to live and that is my friends and grandmother. I don't know my life is so fucked up I don't know if I'll go to UNA just might get a job and live at Courtview towers. I just need to move out of the house ASAP.Well g2g
Love Always Jami

Okay I don't think I could have more of a crappy weekend. Okay first on Friday I came home and cleaned. Then on Saturday I worked on drawing my stupid painting for art. Then on Sunday had to babysit Shelby and she is cutting teeth so she crys alot and she is turning into a spoiled brat. Then on Monday No school whoppie! NOT I still had to babysit Shelby and didn't have time to eat lunch so I felt sick the rest of the day then went home to mom screaming that she had a mid-term and she needed help writing her note cards (BOO FUCKING HOO) Whatever then this moring I had to walk the dog and I came inside to mom bitching it was to cold and wet for the dog so I sai, "well why don't you walk the dog" and she said "Well why don't you die". She is just trying to destroy what is left of me. I'm so depressed and I only have two reasons to live and that is my friends and grandmother. I don't know my life is so fucked up I don't know if I'll go to UNA just might get a job and live at Courtview towers. I just need to move out of the house ASAP.Well g2g
Love Always Jami