Jami's Blog

2005-11-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

wow a time i m on xanga now www.xanga.com/xcut_wrists_and_broken_heartsx

2005-09-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

God ok for the past few weeks all I can think about is losing weight. It seems to me that everyone thinks I look fine, better even but I've gained weight well I've been thinking about going aneroxic but I'm not sure I've cut calories and started to work out at the SRC at UNA but not seeing any results ye. I'll let you know on Monday how its going bc I'm starting tommorrow.

2005-08-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

Today I paid for my books for the semester $295 what the #%&$ anyways its been pretty nice life lately. I talked to Nathan and he is doing good. Chris and I have hung out two times in the past week and I really don't know how he feels about me. I can't wait to start school. Well G2G LOVE always jami

2005-08-06T22:01:00.000-07:00

uggh this week or so has been hell I had to stay at granny pat's all weekend almost bc mom and dad wanted alone time anyways I'm babysitting now and dont have much time to type.Tommorrow I'm going to Beth's house to celebrate her birthday yippee HAPPY BDAY BETH!!

2005-07-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

ok not much time me and bobby broke up and i was in tn last week.

2005-06-28T08:48:00.000-07:00

Oh my god the past 30 hours have been bliss. I met a guy online and it is rather scary. Not in a bad way but a really really good way we have so much in common and his name is bobby. I love him so much. He is a ral sweetheart toward me. **smiles**. Also Mr. Sizemore got fired YIPPEE. I also sold $90 worth of jewelry wow never knew I could do that. Well not much more to say. I'm doing better with the whole SI thing.

Pictures

2005-06-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Okay I finally figured how to do the picture on here. Here are some pictures of me.

2005-06-10T19:28:00.000-07:00

Ok not much new just tired from yesterday and today yesterday i did SOAR at UNA and got my Mane card. Yippee I also took pics of Una and Leo drinking out of a spray bottle. Hmm they are not spoiled hmmmm yeah.

2005-06-05T22:07:00.000-07:00

Ok not much really going on I guess you could say I am getting better but I am not. Hmm I really almost commited suicide this past weekend because mom wont get off my back uggh hope this isnt how my summer is going to be any ways I went to church this past Wednesday and Mr. and Mrs. Hines are leaving ;( anyways I told a few people and they took it ok I guess Kenny was really supportive of me it was really sweet. Brooke kinda took it funny. Well its better they know now so I don't have to hide. Well g2g

2005-05-29T20:07:00.000-07:00

Okay I haven't had any me time in a while but I have a little bit right now so I'm dropping a few lines. Uggh graduation practice was a pain in the ass!! We practiced for like 4 hours!! I got a sun burn bad!! Then the graduation ceramony only lasted 1 1/2 hours. Whatever It's gonna be hard without some of my friends next year it was kinda weird I didn't cry untill I saw Corinne after graduation. I'm really gonna miss her bunches. Not that I'm not gonna miss my other friends but without her and Norman I think I may have commited suicide this year. (Kinda scary huh). I got my digital camera and still looking for a tattoo. Well nothing much to say.

2005-05-20T10:57:00.000-07:00

Wow alot has happened in a week!!! My mom found out about me cutting and she freaked!!! I got a 74 on my economics final but I'm not too sure bout my math exam! Im only gonna be posting every week now. So dont worry.

2005-05-13T07:07:00.000-07:00

okay I had a blast yesterday. We went on our senior trip to Doublehead Resort. I'm hurting now. Wow yeah I did a lot. Sorry I haven't been typing recently just not enough time in a day to do it all in.

2005-05-03T07:27:00.000-07:00

ok just another day. I talked to Mr. Hanna yesterday and he sounded like he was doing really good he even offered me to do my student teaching with him 8-) God I miss everyone so much still. Some times I wonder what people are doing or thinking during the day. Hmmm I told Chris last night that I cut myself I don't know what he feels bc I did it through text messaging stupid way I know. well g2g

2005-05-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

okay it was a looooooooooonnnnng weekend !!! I babysat shelby and got on line I talked to my ex Justin and he denined we ever were together. His new gf is really sweet but she is 4 years younger than him eww. I talked to Chris and I think we might get together :) lol Well not much else to say but later days

2005-04-28T07:12:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm back. Didn't have much time yesterday because I was in a chat room most of the day and I can only go on this website in coach Radtke's class bc the school blocks this site. Hmm whatever. I got my dress and shoes for graduation. Yippee well G2G
Love always
Jami

2005-04-20T10:43:00.000-07:00

okay I haven't posted in a while because I've been sick. It is beautiful outside just like the nice Arizona weather. Hmm I wonder about the people around me sometimes. I think to myself why do people act the way they do but I guess it is just something to wonder. Today we got a new pope he is from Germany I think that is a sign of some sort being today is Hitler's Birthday. HMMM. Well now only like 23 days left til graduation!!! Yippee can hardly wait and soon I will be in college. Well G2g
Love Always Jami

2005-04-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

Okay just sitting here listening to music from when I was happy (Blink 182). It's been a long time since I've truely been happy. That's kinda pathetic but true. Hmm what ever I know that I am merely exsisting just so I can "enjoy" all the good things in life hmm. I'm just thinking how long has it really been that I wanted to wake up in the morning and face the day and the people in my life. Well enough mindless garbage .
Love always
Jami

2005-04-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

Okay I had a wonderful weekend . I didn't go to prom but Martha and I went to the mall and got these cute little friendship necklaces for us and Na'Koal and I got three new charms for my charm bracelet one is a christian fish then a cross then one that says I heart Jesus. I luv em. Martha and I also got shirts Martha's says "Hi, My Name is Naughty" and it has a dog on it. Mine has "Hi My Name Is Trouble" then it has a racoon on it. I went back Saturday and got a pink shirt (I KNOW GASP) lol and three shirts and a pair of filp flops for Sunday. On Sunday I got my pictures taken and think they're really nice looking the ones I saw anyways. I can hardly wait for next class to start because Ms. Ricketts is here and I don't think anyone else in the class knows but I. Well not much to write
lOVE aLWAYS
jAMI

2005-04-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

Wow it is really bad outside we are getting storm and I think we will get out of school because it is getting pretty bad. I'm really mad too because I wana go to prom now and can't. Uggh why am I so stupid oh well. Not much to say just wanna die. I know I am pretty dead inside already.
Love Always
Jami

2005-04-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

okay just another day I made a 90% on my term paper nd we are allowed to make corrections and turn it in again yippee!! Anyways I cant wait for graduation!! I'm still a little sad because of Meghan not coming but thats okay! I can't wait for this weekend because Brad is going to be taking my pictures !! I might get a few cds this weekend but I dunno. I hate this week because I'm not going to prom and everyone is talking about prom this and prom that ughh.
Love Always
Jami

2005-03-25T15:08:00.000-07:00

Okay I got my term paper done yesterday yippee. I also talked to Justin for a few minutes. He seemed a little mad at me bc I broke my promise to him that I'd stop. I feel bad bc he seemed really worried. Oh well I seem to disappoint a lot of people in my life. Its been 2 weeks !!! Yippee!! I hope I can make it though spring break. Spring break is going to suck because I won't be able to go anywhere. Gonna have to clean with mommy dearest..uggh. I also am mad at myself bc at first I didn't want to go to prom but now I can't bc I don't got time to get everything together.Oh well messed my life a little bit more like always.Well G2G its almost time to leave.
Love Always
Jami

2005-03-24T14:16:00.000-07:00

uggh okay I didn't want to put this with my pervious post. I couldn't get a hold of Justin last night . I got a hold of him one time and when I did his dad needed to use the phone so I'm guessing he lives at home now which is cool I hope we get back together. I really missed him when he lost touch. 8-( but he's back in touch 8-)). Well whatever. I won't be posting for a week bc we're out of school and I'm grounded so .
Love Always,
Jami-Lyn

Terri Schiavo

2005-03-24T13:35:00.000-07:00

A federal appeals court refused early Wednesday to order the reinsertion of Terri Schiavo's feeding tube, denying the latest emergency request by the severely brain-damaged woman's parents to keep her alive. In my some of my classes we have been talking about this woman. The Schindlers said Tuesday that their daughter was fading quickly and might die at any moment. Her feeding tube was disconnected on Friday, and doctors have said that Schiavo, 41, could survive one to two weeks without water and nutrients.The Schindlers have been locked for years in a battle with Schiavo's husband over whether her feeding tube should be disconnected. State courts have sided with Michael Schiavo, who insists his wife told him she would never want to be kept alive artificially.In court documents, the Schindlers said their daughter began "a significant decline late Monday. Her eyes were sunken and dark, and her lips and face were dry.I "While she still made eye contact with me when I spoke to her, she was becoming increasingly lethargic,"Bob Schindler said in the papers. Terri no longer attempted to verbalize back to me when I spoke to her." It amazed me that some of my fellow classmates did not know of this person until a day or so ago. I feel appalled that this case has gone so far in such a short amount of time. This happens almost everyday. I know that as soon as possible I'm gonna get a living will. I know that if this happened to me I would not want to stay in a vegetated state, unless there was a chance of recovery. Being born with only a ten percent chance to live I trust my doctors 100% with my life. What do you think ? Please comment !!!!

2005-03-23T09:15:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm really happy because mom said Justin called last night. He left a message saying he'd been in the hospital and thought I'd move on. I haven't listened to the message but I'm very happy!! I got to see the lady from Riverbend next period uggh.... Anyways I GOTTA GO AND WORK ON MY TERM PAPER!! AH
love always Jami-Lyn

2005-03-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

I had an okay weekend. I'm at 10 days now and I'm very proud. Norman and Corrine are happy to I now see even though my mom don't care about me my friends do!! It is going to be a little harder next week with being out on Spring Break. Ugh. Anyways I went to a leadership forum on Saturday and it was pretty cool. Na'koal and Martha were there and so were a few others from school. Any ways not much time to write so I better go
Love Always,
Jami

2005-03-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

Okay so today I have to talk to this lady from Riverbend. I don't know when they are going to call me to talk but I'm not gonna say anything because it is none of their business what I do. Whatever. OMG I almost died yesterday in drivers ed when Michael was driving. I'm getting better at driving ! YIPPEE! Lilly is the only one I think Coach might fail because she keeps driving off the road oh well. I can't wait for graduation I've lost count of days. I can't wait for Meghan to come here I miss her so much . :( I miss my meghan!!!! Lol anyways I'm kinda happy because Anber isn't riding the bus anymore yipppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! Well anyways G2G
love always
Jami

2005-03-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

Okay so far so good I haven't got called out of class yet. I have a feeling I might get called out of 7th period because it is ecology I dunno. I'm tired of having nasty ass food at school. Lemon pepper chicken (which is ok ) or potato bar (yuck).G2G
love ALWAYS
Jami

2005-03-15T15:00:00.000-07:00

okay maybe my day can get worst during art I got called to guidance and Ms. Riser told me the usual stuff. Then she asked me to see someone from Riverbend the Phy. Hospital here but I told her I'd go but I dunno. Whatever I really don't care I just wana be left alone from adults. Uggh I'm really glad I have friends here that I know somewhat understand what I'm going through. Ughh what ever g2g and work on my term paper. It's been 3 days of SI free!

2005-03-15T09:51:00.001-07:00

Okay I don't think I could have more of a crappy weekend. Okay first on Friday I came home and cleaned. Then on Saturday I worked on drawing my stupid painting for art. Then on Sunday had to babysit Shelby and she is cutting teeth so she crys alot and she is turning into a spoiled brat. Then on Monday No school whoppie! NOT I still had to babysit Shelby and didn't have time to eat lunch so I felt sick the rest of the day then went home to mom screaming that she had a mid-term and she needed help writing her note cards (BOO FUCKING HOO) Whatever then this moring I had to walk the dog and I came inside to mom bitching it was to cold and wet for the dog so I sai, "well why don't you walk the dog" and she said "Well why don't you die". She is just trying to destroy what is left of me. I'm so depressed and I only have two reasons to live and that is my friends and grandmother. I don't know my life is so fucked up I don't know if I'll go to UNA just might get a job and live at Courtview towers. I just need to move out of the house ASAP.Well g2g
Love Always Jami

2005-03-15T09:51:00.000-07:00

2005-03-11T09:58:00.001-07:00

Ok just another day haven't had much time to come on here but I have a few minutes to type a few lines. Anyways yesterday I think this guy in my sociology class Norman got mad at me because I had a open safety pin in my mouth and he kept telling me to stop. I know he is just telling me to stop because he don't want to see me hurting myself ok I cut yesterday before school and it kinda upset him. I don't know anymore. I can't wait for Meghan to come here so we can hang out I miss her so much. I don't know if I will be babysitting this weekend or not because Ashley hasn't called at all. I don't know. I feel so empty anymore so I don't know. Well gotta go.
Love Always
Jami

2005-03-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

2005-03-09T13:28:00.000-07:00

Okay sorry but I've really not had time to write much lately. Mom has been so mean lately and all I want to do is cry. I miss all my friends in Arizona. It has been 8 days of SI free. I don't know if I will be able to really stop from SIing. I don't know. My life is really fucked up right now I'm just glad I have friends around me that care about me more that my own mother does. Anyways not much to say.
Love Always
Jami-Lyn

2005-03-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

Okay this weekend sucked !!! I babysat all weekend and had no time what so ever to work on my term paper. Oh well I'll just work on it tonight. I don't know what is happening to me or how I'm feeling but I don't think it is good. Oh well damn why can't people be quiet this is a library and the people in it won't shut up! Uggh, whatever thats all for right now.
Love Always
Jami

2005-03-04T14:21:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm in ecology right now and I'm kinda happy because I think I did very well on my test. Anyways it's kinda boring at school because it is senior ditch day and I didn't ditch. Why do people ditch anyways it's pointless!! Anyways I think this guy in my art class likes me but I'm not sure. I won't go out with him because he is only 16 sorry that is way too young for me. Well not much to say for not .
Love Always,
Jami

2005-03-04T10:01:00.000-07:00

Okay yesterday was kind weirdo I got called to guidance and the counselor asked if I was hurting myself but she really didn't ask directly which was stupid. Oh yeah like I'm stupid enough to tell her that I'm cutting and burning myself...Um no. Anyways me and mom are still fighting ever so much and I'm babysitting because Shelby is all better well g2g Love always Jami

2005-03-03T09:41:00.000-07:00

Today not much is going on I don't want to be at school which is nothing new I just want to move back to Arizona and never come back. I won't do that though because I've already been accepted to U.N.A oh well what ever random thoughts in my head wishing I was really dead no hope for love or anything wish this life was but a dream .Well thats enough
Much Love Jami

Just at school....

2005-03-02T12:09:00.000-07:00

listening to My Chemical Romance "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)". It's on http://oskaberg.blogspot.com another blogger I go on but it is not mine. I also got a Leo and Una picture done finally! Yippee now I get to do a dumn car the teacher assigned me uggh oh well it will be okay I guess. Well I better go because I gotta work on my research paper. (SO MUCH FUN) not !!!!

SI Awareness Day 2005

2005-03-01T09:24:00.000-07:00

Okay today is National Self Injury Awareness Day. I wore black and red the colors that represent SI and a few of my friends did that I know SI, but then some of the kids at school I know are wearing alot of red and black but I don't know if they SI or not.I dunno I'm doing my term paper on Self Injury in Young Adults so it's not going to be really all that hard because I already know alot from my personal research I did. Well not much more to say so have a great day.

2005-02-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

Okay my weekend was totally wasted I didn't babysit because poor Shelby is sick! Ok so I went to volunteer for the lions then came home and worked on my term paper. I was bored the whole time. I was totally depressed Sunday and my mom really didn't help anything so I cut myself really bad this morning. Well not much more to say. Love Always Jami

2005-02-24T12:13:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here online during my driver's ed class to bored to function. I'm also happy because I have 89 days til Meghan gets here so that means 90 days till graduation!!! YIPPEE.

50 WAYS TO ANNOY YOUR PARENTS

2005-02-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

50 Ways to annoy your parents!!!

1)Follow them around the house..everywhere

2)Moo when they say your name

3)Pretend to have amnesia

4)Say everything backwards

5)Give yourself a swirly

6)Run around with a lamp shade on your head yelling "the sun! It's dying!!"

7)Run into walls

8) Ask "Why?" everytime they say something to you.

9)Have nervous spasms at anonymous times

10)Say that wearing clothes is against your religion

11)Pretend to worship the Devil

12)Stand over them at 4 in the morning with a HUGE grin on your face and say "Good morning Sunshine!"

13)Snort loudly when you laugh and then laugh harder

14)run in circles

15)recite a whole movie 3 times

16)pretend to beat yourself up

17)Pluck someone's hair out and yell "DNA!!!"

18)Slither everywhere

19)wear a sticker that says "I'm a retard!"

20)wear your pants on your head and your shirt on your waist. tell them you're making a fashion statement.

21)Try and drink out of a glass the wrong way

22)Super glue your finger up your nose

23)Talk to a pen

24)Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to ALL the time

25)Lay face down and chant like an Indian tribe

26)Try and climb the wall

27)Spread out on the window and buzz, pretending to be a fly

28)Take your ice cream cone and put it on your forehead. Say your a lovely unicorn

29)In public yell "NO MOM I WILL NOT MAKE OUT WITH YOU!!!"

30)Put pegs on your nose and eyes

31)Do what they actually tell you

32)Switch the light button on and off for awhile. Then say "oh...I get it!"

33)Eat your hair

34)Whatever they are eating, tell them it looks like a certain animal

35)Eat anything obviously not edible

36)Jump off the roof, trying to fly

37)Say your pet is mocking you and chase it around the house

38)Hold their hand and whisper to them "I see dead people."

39)When you shower or bath yell "I'm drowning!!!!"

40)Try and snorkle in your fish tank

41)Ask them quietly "Pardon me but do you have any.." then yell "SHOELACES!!!!!!"

42)Chase an imaginary tail

43)Demand that you want your own area code
44)At everything they say yell "LIAR!!"
45)Pretend to be 346 years old
46)Hang upside down in your closet
47)Pretend to be a phone
48)Try to swim in the floor
49)Tap on their door all night
50)Pretend to have multiple personalities

2005-02-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

okay today was pointless to come to school because there is a girls basketball game in Hansville and almost like 99% of the school is at the game. Oh well I will just get to come to the library like every period.. My economics class is watch Charmed wow so fun! lol not!! Well all for now talk to you later love always jami

2005-02-22T13:48:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOSH I almost died!!! Ok I'm in a driver's education class and there are three other people in my group Lilly and Autumn are freshmen and Micheal is a sophomore. Autumn is the best driver among us all and its a 3 way tie of who is the worst because Lilly made skid marks, Micheal doesn't turn his signal on and I almost hit a curb. I hate driver's ed it is soo scary but I will be ok I drive on Tuesdays only. Well G2G Love Always Jamilyn

just another day....

2005-02-22T09:44:00.000-07:00

Okay I got my cd player back (yippee) . I didn't get into trouble or anything! I'm really depresessed right now and really don't know what to do. I feel like my body is being sucked into itself and I'm powerless to stop it. I don't know I have some really fucked up feelings and thinking. Anyways thats all for now. Tata for now Love Always Jami

2005-02-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

ok this sucks i was in economics and because I wasn't in class yesterday I was getting work that I had missed I was NO where near my purse and my damn Cd player started playing everyone thought it was my cell phone but it wasn't but my cd player was REALLY LOUD! Ughh the teacher took it away but I think he will give it back at the end of the day I hope I don't get suspended or Mom and Dad will so kick me out of the house. Well not much more to say still depressed and still doing some SI.
Love Always Jami-Lyn

2005-02-17T13:12:00.000-07:00

Not much to as of the last few days. Just still depressed. Everyone is asking what is wrong but do they really want to know of are they just asking to make it seem like they care? I don't know anymore . Hours feel like days anymore. My mom isn't helping it either she says a lot of emotionally destructive things. I feel as if I am in a box and the box is getting smaller,and smaller, and smaller. well that's all for now always jami

2005-02-15T13:32:00.000-07:00

I have found a way which might help me stop SI. I found these at www.shatteredinnocents.com
they're badges to help stop SI. I'm gonna try it. I will keep you posted on my results.

Untitled

2005-02-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

This pain and stress I'm feeling won't go away,

I shake and tremble I hate this life today.

Only one way to shake this pain,

To cut into my flesh and watch the blood drain.

The blood flows quickly and onto the floor,

My mom begins calling and knocking on my door.

"Go Away!", I say with tears in my eyes,

Trying to forget about all those who lied.

People say I'm crazy, stupid, and weird,

It's the thoughts in my head that they really fear,

Thoughts of death and thoughts of pain,

Thoughts of no tommorrows again,

I lay on the floor,

I won't open the door,

Wanting to be free of this feeling anymore.

I close my eyes prepared to die,

A bell rings I open my eyes,

I look around to realize it was all but a dream,

I'm at school and alive,

then smile and rise,

Reach into my pocket and feel the blade,

I go to the restroom,

To release my pain again.

-Jami-Lyn 2/14/05

Things you can say to someone if they notice an SI YOU HAVE DONE!

2005-02-14T09:53:00.000-07:00

I had unprotected sex with a porcupine.
I took my lizards for a walk and they held on for dear life.
The neighborhood cat and I had a disagreement about the paw prints on my truck.
The police didn't comply with the terrorists' demands fast enough, so they took it out on us hostages.
This first one is kind of lame, but it's what I use most often: "Um, uh...I, uh....you see....I...uh...Well,...." At which they usually try to help me out by replying, "Did you fall?" And I say, "Yes, thanks."
Well, let me just tell you this: You should NEVER EVER, under ANY circumstances, go out with a guy/girl that you met on the internet.
I hurt myself.
I keep falling off of cliffs trying to catch that damned roadrunner.
"I was oyster hunting." They give me a blank stare. Then I say, with a wink, "You've obviously never been oyster hunting before."
"It's a long story." They usually leave me alone, but this one guy said, "I've got time." Then I said, "I fell. [long pause] Ok, so it's obviously not THAT long."
I was at this party with Marilyn Manson and everyone was giving out hugs.
I lost a fight with a can of tuna fish.
I slipped while making a salad.
I fell asleep, and the clown got me.
I'll just put it this way: when they tell you not to feed the bears, it's for a damned good reason.
I thought those security tags on pants just sprayed ink, but apparently they spray shards of broken glass, too.
Those aren't cuts, they're mehendi.
Don't worry about it. Because of me, they now have a warning label!
What are you talking about?? (as I quickly pull my sleeves up.)
Damn Cat.
Well, when I was younger, I had this dream that a dog was following me...he ran, and I ran, but the faster I ran, the more he sped up. I wanted to get to safety, to my house...I was almost there...but right when I got to the front porch, he bit me. Everywhere. Lots of times. Making marks that don't look like bites at all. And when I woke up... ::wide eyes:: and I had THESE.
"What scars?" They usually reply "those ones," to which I reply, "I don't see anything."
The voices told me to do it.
I wrestle Tigers...
I got them climbing a fence to escape this hell-hole. (said at school)
(said to a guy who thinks I worship the devil) I did this as a sacramental offering to my dark lord, you prick. ::Smile::
(about scars on my stomach) "Oh, those are from having my baby." "You don't have a baby!" "No, but I could."
None of your business, you stupid (insert appropriate curse word here)
I did it. (Hey, honesty works sometimes)

Valentines day

2005-02-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

Wow valentines day just another day for the people who don't have anyone to feel worse then they already do. I have no one to give me chocolates, flowers or, stuffed animals. No one to call my love no nothing . So depressed. Nothing more to say but have a happy valentines day!!
love always jami

February 11

2005-02-11T22:29:00.000-07:00

hey just another day full of pain I'm sitting here on the computer it is 9:24 pm and I'm a little tired. I'm watching Green Day on Fuse TV. I met a girl at school that actually likes the music and shit I listen to. Her name is Meagan but people call her Star which is cool. I miss my buddies in Arizona. HI *WAVES* meghan2. Lol okay no one but me and Meghan2 will get this but Olivia is going to get you!!!! MWAH HA HA! (EVIL LAUGHTER). Well good night to all.
love always jami-lyn

2005-02-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

im so very bored !

Sad

2005-02-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

okay last night was really crappy. I'm no longer going to go to the churchI've been going to. I hate being single because I've been single for a long time. My 1st bf was physically abusive and my last bf justin lived really far so we never got to see each other. I think I will never really find love because I know I'm ugly and I have no desire for marriage or children. Well not much to say good bye for now Love Always Jami

February 9

2005-02-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

okay today is just another day in my ho hum life. Not really much going on just at school. Gosh I think I should have my head examined for wanting to go into teaching when I hate school so much! Anyways I'm going go crazy if I don't get out of the house. I might go to church because I really should go and haven't been since Christmas. I cannot wait for this weekend because I'm going to get a Green Day and a My Chemical Romance CD!! yippee!!! I'm sad because me and my boyfriend Justin broke up and now he keeps calling me being a little prick! I hate him so much now because I thought he really cared about me but I'm stupid and don't see when people are really being fake toward me. Mom and I are fighting again because she wants me to go to the Senior/Junior prom and I don't want to go. A lot of my friends want me to go too. Main reason I'm not going is because I won't have a date to go with. Well Good bye for now have a good day. Love always Jami-Lyn

February 8

2005-02-08T10:30:00.000-07:00

hello today is my first day with a blogger. not much to say right now.